There are just times that I need John. My heart aches for him, and I wonder how I've made it this long without him. The last few days have been that way for me. I've taken stalk of my life this last year. I keep praying for someone to come into our lives to take the pain, sorrow, and lonely away. Here's the big problem...How can I move on when I can't let go of John?
That question plagues my thoughts most of the day and night. People tell me that when I meet the right person, It will all work out. I just don't know if I buy it. I hate complication. I'm a simpleton. Okay, I wish I was a simpleton.
Last night, I dreamed of John all night. That really doesn't happen that often. He was in about 4 or 5 different dreams. We ran to each other. Kissed and hugged and cried. I told him how much I've missed him, and how it was like a dream that he was here with me again. He would smile and kiss me again, and hold me tight.
I woke up with tears on my pillow. I realized that there is no amount of time that is enough. I am so grateful to know that I have endless time with my sweet love. I am so blessed to have him as my eternal companion. I never have to worry about not seeing him again, because I know that I will. I know that we have forever together, and this is but a brief intermission.
Clane in charge.
16 hours ago